Friday, June 27, 2008

Well I started the new drug yesterday. I'm taking it on top of all the others they have me on. What the hell right? What won't cure me might kill me.

I'm coughing in the AM again like I used to. Which is saying something. That means it's productive and not a constant dry hacking cough. Gross huh? Don't you wish you came here everyday to read this. *hello, are you still here?*

My son is an absolute blessing. Yesterday in the mayham that is my husbands inability to be rational, he was a god send. He walked up to me and patted my back while I sobbed. I hate that he even sees any of this. Unfortunately full on warfare is how my husband was raised. He doesn't see "a time and place". Frankly when he freaks out he doesn't "see" at all. This is what he sought counseling for before. And like before he doesn't see it in himself. Only this time G is old enough to point it out to him also, though I've told him a million times to keep his mouth shut. Anyone how knows my spawn (lol) will know that he will not keep his mouth shut for long. I think that is a fight that might turn really really ugly. Boys and their mothers and all.

So today we are off to work.

This weekend we are off to work at the goats. Bill wants to "get away" for a day. (Did I mentin he just got home from NASCAR?) I don't. I hate traveling or socializing, can't walk for far, don't like shopping (again with the walking), don't want to drive (have you been to the pump lately), hate being indoors, but can't get far from home and be outside due to the smoke. So. I'm giving him that criteria and saying, sure you figure something out. Get back to me on that.

Meanwhile I'll be with my goats. Outside. In clean air. Enjoying myself. Probably in the sun. Possibly alone.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Well glad I didn't have my heart set on this one.

The goat show this weekend has been canceled. Due to fire. While I'm rather bummed since this would be my last show this year, I'm rather relieved too. On one hand the goats I was taking are looking really good and I really think they stood a good chance. On the other hand I wasn't looking forward to a weekend of rolling eyes, cell phones, generally being ignored, fighting, heat, and then smoke.

Lightening is God's little way of letting me off easy.
UGH and UGH and EWWW and BLEH.

That should cover it.

Heard from my DR today. The culture is back. Take the drug I was taking. Before now but not way before now. So the one in the middle. The expensive one. Yeah me.

On that note the prednisone did as prescribed. I feel MUCH better. However, I'm on the downhill slide of it and can feel the pressure building back up. The new antibiotic should help that. I hope.

My hubby is an irrational asshole today. This I did not need. I mean who ever needs it? Right? But today I could have used him to be a little less irate and a hole lot more rational. I mean really? You slept all day yesterday. Claiming it was too wet to mow yards. Ask for G to help you today, because you have to have all this work done by tomorrow. Then you DRIVE OFF AND LEAVE HIM HOME because of something I said to you. Something along the lines of, you probably should have gotten some of this done YESTERDAY. I call and offer to go out of my way to drop him off, thinking you just forgot him. You SCREAM at me. The woman you just left coughing up blood clots and gasping for air. You screamed at me? Do you know how dead that could make you? Ummmm get a grip much?

Ok so end hubby rant. I'm over it. He's clueless. But I'm not going to point that out. It's like not seeing the forest for the trees.

My goats are looking pretty good.
I wish I could get these damn kids sold. It looks like a trip to Petaluma is in order. I'll haul a bunch of misfits if I have to go that far just to make it worth the haul.

Tomorrow I work at the dairy of mystery. Ha. I haven't been able to get into the barn since their remodel so this hole thing will be a mystery. My faithful employee will be there to hold my hand so it will all work out ok. Either that, or we'll both leave the whole mess to G and he can figure it out. It's taken me 3 trips to get enough hose to make all the pieces I needed just to connect the meters. And it's not that I can't measure. I swear. Measure twice cut once. Nothing was as disheartening as getting to the end of the roll yesterday and realizing I was 3 feet short. UGH!

Goats again. All re-clipped and as ready for the show as they are going to get. They still look a little mothy, but I don't give a rip now. We have to scratch one ober because she has a fungal (not ringworm) patch on her ear and cheek. One of the "other" guys kids came with the same crud on the base of her ear. We treated and moved on. Whatever ya know? It's actually the right time frame to have been something they picked up at the last show too. Which could/would mean ringworm, except this is not like any ringworm I've ever seen. The pens we use there house pigs, sheep, goats, calves... you name it the rest of the year, so who knows what bugs might be in there. Just goes to show we need to get back to spraying everything again. :-(

Sunday, June 22, 2008

The bobble head goat of yesterday is getting better. Tonight she's more like, bobble muzzled goat.

Not sure what caused the swelling because as a precautionary I threw everything I could think of at her yesterday to "make sure" to cover all my bases. The problem with that is you never know for SURE what the problem was.

Could have been bees. Could have been a reaction to the new wormer. Could have been a reaction from the worms dieing. Though really I didn't think she was overloaded, I wormed them because it was time, not so much because I saw a need.