Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Not to panic. I am still here.

Alive is good.

Kidding season has passed here. We have one lone doe left to kid and frankly I'm not even sure she's bred. I actually disbudded doe kids last weekend and this weekend will finish up what's left.
Boy am I glad that's over. If I was feeling better this would have been perfect. I think I'll shoot for this again next year, only I plan to be healthyish in Feb of '09.

The cardiologist must have drawn a blank becuase I got the refural to the neurologist. I'm putting it off. Ok... collective gasp, groan, and bitching now... I do want to know why I had those TIA's don't get me wrong. The fact that they may just be a part of life is becoming more and more likely. And right now, this moment, I'm swamped under with bills.
Yes we have insurance, but 20% of thousands and thousands (it's up to 3000 and we haven't even started getting my bills yet, that's from G's migraine research)of dollars is still more money than I have. I just can't see adding another Dr. and another test to the mix when I'm not sure how to spread out payments to the 10 or more doctors, labs, techs, and facilities I've been to in the last 2 weeks. Should I mention about the adoption fees that should hit next month too?

So now you know where I've been the last few days. I'm trying really hard not to let myself be totally stressed. Next month, I test alllll my herds except one and I'm not sure how well I feel up to it. But it really doesn't matter, it must be done, or I'll never be able to pay these bills.