tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42969592065905348932024-03-14T01:11:35.585-07:00Foggy ThoughtsFogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.comBlogger320125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-34749774542184541452011-12-28T18:43:00.000-08:002011-12-28T19:06:28.787-08:00What's ahead.....probably not more blogging.<br /><br />Sorry lord I suck at this. The only time I think of something wonderful to say is at 2am, and by 8am it's poof and blah blah blah...<br /><br />I won't do a year in review post because this year was pretty much... WING ZING.. POOF Transplant/SPLAT!<br /><br />Seriously, it's like nothing else happened. I swear today #1 and I had to ask a FRIEND who the heck one of our goat babies was out of. Thankfully he could remember where she went... which lead us the the name. (all stuff stored in the computer, but used to be *right there* in the brain) I had to ask #1 what the heck the cows names were. Really? I named them... *eye roll* <br /><br />And yet, today while #1 and other son #2 were giving shots to said babies, I whipped out each and every name... Except "horse face", man has she changed!<br /><br />So for next year...<br /><br />Some weight loss I hope. Eating healthy, yeah probably not going to happen more than it is. Some drugs getting cut back will help some, and getting my lazy butt into shape will help ALOT. Getting back to work full time will go a long way towards that. Had #1 pull out the Wii and put it in the living room and spent 10 min on it, then went and walked on his treadmill for a VERY short time.<br /><br />Continuing the use of the 8 weeks of meals planner I found online. Yeah!, for someone else figuring it out. It's great because even DH can do it. We started these before my surgery because, god help him, my husband had no sense of how to flavor food, and you can only fry a chicken breast so many ways. He's good at following a recipe, and again... someone else can figure it out.<br /><br />Trying to send out thank you cards. Wow we have slacked on this the last few years, I just haven't had the energy to fight to get it done, or to pick out the cards either. <br /><br />Adding on to my business, adding clients, some new equipment....<br /><br />Making more than 2 goat shows a year. Hoping that the new laws won't effect this too much. I don't read it to have any effect except on "street sales". (sb-917 animal abuse laws for CA) Haven't heard anything in the goat world about it, but it is all over the rabbit lists. Some people who claim to know it all (on the internet... hahahah) say no shows will be "legal" and animal control can come... blah blah. I will believe it when I see it, but until then, we won't be hauling as many.<br /><br />Oh, and to make all those pesky DRs appointments. Happy Healthy and all that.<br /><br />What will your next year bring?Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-18166828518253867102011-12-21T09:04:00.001-08:002011-12-21T09:46:46.106-08:00Freedom, Sweet FreedomYesterday was another clinic appointment, but by far the best one yet. I saw my regular Pulunalogist, Dr. Blue Eyes, and it was extremely informative. <br /><br />#1 He explained the antibody numbers they are watching and said that they really don't know how those number relate in relation to longevity of transplant. They are collecting data, a study really, but they do look for rises in those numbers as a sign of infection. The numbers will wane and ebb all the time.<br /><br />#2 My medications will rise and fall all the time and it is not necessarily and indication of rejection. It's a numbers game keeping all the levels working together correctly.<br /><br />#3 After a quick spiro, which checks lung volume, my results came back at 91% of normal for age/sex/weight. It was 80% 2 weeks ago. This is a number higher than he said they ever hoped to see from me. And not to expect too much more, since the lungs aren't mine they do not ever expect 100%. HA! He obviously forgot who's he's talking too.<br /><br />Oh and the important one....<br /><br />#4 I CAN GO HOME!!!!! They canceled all of next weeks "stuff" and I don't have to come back until the 3rd (actually the 2nd since those are AM appointments)of Jan.<br /><br />So I am down to once weekly blood draws and once a month clinic appointments until May. In May it goes to bi-monthly appointments until my one year anniversary. After that, every 3 months. <br /><br />I *could* have gone right home after my appointment, but since I had plans for the week here, trying to kill the boredom until I went AWOL again, I offered to stay until my draw on Thursday. They upped my prograf on Monday night and I'd like to know where it's sitting. (Still low, btw)<br /><br />Speaking of Prograf.... this shit sucks. First off I have to take it sublingually, under the tongue, since they can't get my numbers up to an acceptable level to change me to oral, which means I have to not only wait for this powder to melt, but then wait 30 min to eat or drink. HUGE time sucker and I hate time suckers. (Says the girl who plays Bejeweled...SHUT UP) The second sucky part is the shakes. Tremors the drs call them. Every time they up the dose it takes several days to adjust, if at all. Add to that the prednisone, which just makes you race, some days it's all I can do to sign my name. I have cards to fill out for Christmas and am debating just printing out what I have to say, because waiting for my hands to mellow out may be a moot point. But other than the puffy face, thanks prednisone, and the shaky hands, I have been blessed with minimal side effects. Too bad I didn't get the weight loss side effect... I never get the "good" ones.Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-28808587074725643632011-11-30T08:57:00.000-08:002011-11-30T09:07:23.863-08:00Nothing much to report down here. Made it through a WHOLE appointment at the hospital without someone deciding I should hang out and stay for a while. <div><br /></div><div>It looks like the sun is going to come out today...finally. I could use a dose of sun in my life. I'm bored stiff. You can only walk around this park so many times. I'm going to put around in my car a little this weekend and see how that goes. I'm not worried that I forgot to drive or anything...mostly that I am comfortable enough behind the wheel. If I was home I would be more likely to be out and about already, but traffic here is a whole new ball of wax.</div><div><br /></div><div>So alls going well, just trying to pass the time between appointments and the time I can come home and be bored there instead. </div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-26652222787049312652011-11-27T11:02:00.000-08:002011-11-27T11:28:08.629-08:00SundaySaturday night I finally was home and not having yet some other procedure done so I made it past that 48 hour mark where I could finally have a damn shower. Ok, before you think EWWWWW.... sink baths have their usefulness, and a lovely NA at the hospital rigged a chair and I leaned into a shower and she washed my hair, so it isn't as bad as it sounds. <div><br /></div><div>Anyway, shower. Cold.as.hell.tile. I was FREEZING! There wasn't enough hot water in that bathroom. Our trailer has a shower, if you don't want to raise your arms, or turn around, so I'm opting for the park restrooms/showers. The incision under my right breast, which I've been having people look at for weeks, opened up in a spot and drained a bunch of nasty goop. Yellow/brown but not smelly or chunky. I cleaned some out there and when I came back to the house...and stopped shaking like a leaf...I was able to clear a little more. I opted not to call home health then knowing they were coming in the morning anyway, and I had no fever.</div><div><br /></div><div>When HH got here on Sunday she flipped through the roof. My thermometer is a little temperamental and she took it's first reading, 99.1, (stupid thing read 99.1 the next three times I tried to use it too....seems better now) plus the weeping and sent me to the ER at about 4:30pm last night. Upon check-in at the ER...no fever. Never had a fever.... blood work was normal, white blood cells normal. All checked out. The surgery team came and took a look, they don't want it messed with, no dressing. I'll see them on Tuesday at my clinic appointment. There was actually some talk of reopening that area of the incision and cleaning and re-closing. This was not my favorite option obviously. I really just want to be sure this is dressed correctly so it will heal. They are going to order some different shots during my CT scan next week to make sure there is nothing pulled loose inside that will need to be fixed. We rolled out for home at about 9. Uncle stopped at McD's for us so we could snag some dinner, I was famished. I was beyond hungry, I had actually banned the talk of food. You know you are starved when your 16 year old son tells you to slow down.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm still shooting for coming home the second week of Dec. I don't know with all this "other" stuff going on if my schedule will stay like it is, or if they will tack on some extra tests and things at the end. Once I get to a once a week clinic only, I'm coming home. I will just have to drive down once a week for clinic. Labs I can have at home.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-20227955768827948482011-11-25T16:41:00.000-08:002011-11-25T17:05:02.754-08:00Black Friday<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>What is this, day 22 since I came down here for my transplant. It is starting to seem like an eternity. Boredom has beyond set it, but I am not really "up" to much. <div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>First thing this AM I had to be at the hospital for a blood draw. The lab is supposed to open at 7, we planned to be there at 8, since my test has to be done between 7-9. We were there shortly before 8 to find they didn't open until 8, day after the holiday and all. So at about 8:15 we find out, no, the HUGE sign at the front door was incorrect, they were actually opening at 8:30. Damn was I glad we hadn't gotten there at 7, I would have been slightly hot. At 8:40 I was back in the truck and headed for home.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Bill, Greg, and I went after noon today and checked out the huge mall/plaza over in Daly City, which is only about 2 miles from camp. I needed to get a few things if the girls were going to stay and Greg needed socks. I can't for the life of me understand why he thought 2 pairs of socks would be enough.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>We settled for a Target since it seems the only wallyworld is in Brisbane and though it's probably close, it seemed too far to bounce around in the car. It still is hard to get jumbled and bumped around. Think separated sternum (though mine wasn't) and 5 perforations between different ribs. The numbness in my chest is finally subsiding, though when I get shook around it comes back. I will be glad when those nerves get themselves realigned and regrown. I had an itch on my right breast, but felt it on my left.... there is just nothing right about that.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>We spent about an hour cruizing a super huge target with a full grocery store in it. The place was still packed so I wore my mask. I only wear it when in the hospital, the one place they say I don't need to, um no, sick people are at hospitals. Of all the places I may or may not wear it, the hospital is for SURE one that I will. I also wear it if the stores are packed. It's funny how many more people I notice sneezing and wiping their noses now. </div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>When we got back I took Yo-yo's new leash and took her for a walk down the dog area and to the bluff and then back to the trailer. By the time I was on my way back my legs were getting tired and I wasn't sure I could get back up the steps. I have found when I am really tired I don't lift my right leg as well and it gets caught on the top step. I usually have spotters at the top and bottom of the steps because I can't lift or push more than 10lbs with my arms. I feel every pound across my chest when I do. I did make it pretty much unassisted to my aunts and uncles yesterday for dinner. I don't carry anything extra though, not even my wallet. </div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Bill left for home about an hour ago. I don't know that he'll be back down until it's time to go home. He's doing my work and his job both. Disability hasn't set in for him yet so money is really tight this payday. Uber important to keep my jobs going as they will pay the bills right now. It will all catch up eventually. Just have to hang on til then. </div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I'm going to attempt to wander over and take a shower tonight. I think all my wounds can get wet now. Last time it was shower day.... they re-admitted me. MUST WASH HAIR.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>All is well for the time being, and while I thought I would have a whole weekend of peace and quiet, home health will be here tomorrow since they are worried about this ugly wound that isn't healing on my left side.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>So much for my weekend. As if I have anything else to do right?</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-58551461516168306802011-11-24T19:19:00.000-08:002011-11-24T19:34:04.518-08:00ThanksgivingIn our little home away from home our little family had a fabulous dinner. Bill drove down this morning and brought me my babies and I've sure missed them. They were happy enough to see me, my little yo-yo was super happy to have her mommy, Bridgette was just happy to see someone with a blanket.<div><br /></div><div>Bill brought down a ham with him, Auntie made salad and rolls, Granny made sweet potatoes and turkey stuffing (greg's request), Uncle was sure we had pie and ice cream, and I picked up a veggie tray while on my walk at Safeway today. It's been rainy and wet so I haven't been outside walking much. I try to get to some store, or to the hospital every day to do walking. I didn't walk much during stay #2 because of the uber painful drain line. </div><div><br /></div><div>The home health lady was by today to check on the new site and to do a new update since I was just released. The new drain looks awesome they said, nothing more than a needle mark. One of the old drain sites is giving them all fits. It's not sealing up, has quite a bit of dead tissue, and isn't changing for the better in it's prognosis. They are trying a new type of dressing on it to try to lift out that dead tissue and open it up to something more pink. They will now be coming out every other day to be sure it's making progress. I can't see the darn thing to tell them one way or the other. Everything else looks spiffy. The incision looks awesome, healing nicely with some Vit E slapped on it daily. </div><div><br /></div><div>Take blood sugar, blood pressure, temp, weight, pills, mark, check, and chart.... wash rinse repeat. </div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-6340030381585268572011-11-23T15:52:00.000-08:002011-11-23T16:28:57.108-08:00Stay #2<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>On Friday, the day after my release date from stay #1, I had a few tests to have done. While I was waiting for test #1 I ran into my reg pulmologist Dr. Blue Eyes. He was sad to hear I felt like crap. He could also visiably see my whole body shaking and guessed my Prograf was too high, would look into my numbers, would order something other than glorified Tylenol for my pain, and told me I was doing SO SO SO good for being less than a month out! Chin up, it would get better.<div>Test #1 was a nice simple "spyro" which just measures my current lung capacity. While I didn't feel like I was moving more air, it turns out these lungs are working at least 4 times better than the old ones. It was good to see that, because really, I couldn't feel it in here.</div><div><br /></div><div>Test #2 was a high resolution CT scan of my lungs. Ct lady said my right lung had fluid around it. No one called me all weekend, Bill was here to visit, and on sunday I called the home health nurse to come and see if she could pack the old drain tube hole that won't seem to stop draining.</div><div><br /></div><div>Monday morning was a morning of tests again. Starting the morning off with a 7am bronchoscopy with biopsy. That's pretty much where it all went down hill from. They got in for the bronchoscopy and found my lungs look GREAT, but the right one was smooshed. They called in radiology to do an ultrasound to look for pockets of fluid. They found a "medium" sized one that they decided to put a chest drain in for, though the radiologist thought he'd gotten it all with the 500cc of fluid he pulled out at placement. Dr Golden (fabulous pulmonologist) said they would be doing NOTHING else to me while I was there, I'd stay over night but as soon as it quit draining I could go home. This was one of those little drains, about the size of a straw, but they placed it in my back. You can't lay on it. Mine you couldn't even TOUCH without me going through the roof it hurt so badly. Once they finally found me a bed, 12 hours in the radiology dept on a gurney, the nurse I had was instrumental in getting me some pain meds. The doctors couldn't agree and in the mean time where just letting me lie there in agony. She was one of my nurses during stay #1 so she knew what I HAD been on and what HAD been working so she just kept on them all night until she finally got me something. She also had to track down my medications since there were no orders for those either. She must have came into my room hourly with another something for me to take as the orders trickled in. While she was there she would help me shift my weight around and make it so I could lay as close to on my back as possible. This let my mom rest as she was up with me all the rest of the time.</div><div>I drained jut shy of 1000cc that night alone. We had thought that I would be home from there yesterday afternoon because at 1:30 it seemed things had slowed way down. However as the afternoon rolled into night I drained another 250cc. One more night and today they let me go, again. All in all, with the initial drainage at placement, this "medium" fluid buildup drained close to 1800cc. My heart rate has dropped considerably, which we really expected with the new lung placement but was hard to call with the pain I was in. When the poor girl came into remove the drain today I warned her it hurt like heck. She said #1, this is in a horrible place. And #2, it's laying against your diaphragm. Every wiggle, sneeze, burp, bump, cough moved it either into my ribs (where they push the tube through for placement) or into my diaphragm. When she pulled it, it was pure fire from my shoulder to my belly button. Then my right leg went all pins and needles. Once the burning stopped, about 3 min after she was done, it really did feel better. </div><div><br /></div><div>Mostly I can notice the reduction in fluid only in that it is slightly easier to draw a breath. You'd think it would be a HUGE change. I'm sure it is! Only my chest is still on and off numb. This could take months to go away. When I get jiggled or bumped around, say in a car, my chest goes numb, and while I know I am breathing, and can sort of feel that, it feels mostly like a great weight is on my chest. </div><div><br /></div><div>I have a free pass tomorrow and am hoping to get back to my walking, which has been far less than I was hoping to achieve. My babies will get here tomorrow, and while I'm not sure I'm having Bill leave them altogether, I am looking forward to a visit. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm getting rather shaky now, so I'll go for now. I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayer. As always, one step at a time. At least now there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it isn't just a freight train headed my way.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-72212857891928403752011-11-23T15:48:00.000-08:002011-11-23T15:50:24.795-08:00Transplant Hospital Stay Recap<div>Transplant recap.</div><div><br /></div><div>At a little before noon on Thursday the 3rd my phone rang and I saw it was the SF area code and my gut reaction was “what in the hell do they want now.” It was Jill, one of the pre transplant nurses to tell me that had a donor match for me. She had a few things to tell me and our call (oops, my bad) got dropped so she returned my call on my home phone. In the mean time I was trying to rally my family for the trip down. I called Bill at work to tell him and wound up screaming at him because he couldn’t hear me over the mill noise. I located my dad even and got him headed down. My mom, aunt and uncle all car pooled, and as it turned out, Jill called me back and talked long enough that I was able to just wait a few minutes for Bill to ride with Greg and I. I actually had to tell her she had called me on the land line and if she wanted me driving I’d have to GO.</div><div><br /></div><div>I’m not sure how to say I was feeling at the moment. Greg and I had a little cry. I think the anticipation and worry kinda all hits you at once. Up until now it had just been something that was going to happen, eventually. Waiting to get listed, waiting for a match. You can’t answer the question “SO when are you having that transplant?” So the answer is, still waiting.</div><div>We made it to SF in 4 hours arriving at just about 4:30, Bill dropped me at the door and went to park while I went to check into admissions. We sat there for an hour after I was admitted. It pretty much let everyone who had gotten out behind us catch up. I finally got a room assignment and came up to the 10th floor. Gown, IV placed (after 5 tries), x-ray, and, you guessed it….more waiting. My family arrived and we all chatted and yapped to pass the time. We were given a tentative start time of 10pm. </div><div><br /></div><div>They wheeled me down to the OR at about 9ish and my family was given directions to the best place to wait and when updates would be given….. Blah blah blah. They were told to expect at least a 10 hour surgery maybe more like 16 hours. Just be prepared for a long haul but that they would receive update calls throughout the surgery. My mom, Bill, Greg, my dad, auntie, uncle, bills parents, and my best friends were there waiting it out. I can’t begin to explain how much that means to me.</div><div><br /></div><div>I was given something to “relax me” and woke up after surgery. What I do know is the first cut was made at 11:40pm after the donor lungs arrived and were double checked visually to be sure they where a good match. They wheeled me into the ICC unit on the 10th floor at 7:20am on Friday the 4th. </div><div><br /></div><div>Since I’ve never been one to do anything “by the book” I woke up after surgery, intubated of course, but able to sign or write notes. My husband came in to see me and I guess I was scrubbing on his hand trying to write a note. I remember him saying, “Are you trying to tell me you love me?” And me shaking my head adamantly NO. They quickly found me paper, shocked that I could write coherently when not even able to open my eyes. Something that amazed every dr, therapist and nurse who would meet me over the next 7 days. When intubated they normally give you enough drugs to be comfortable and quiet. Yeah, well not so much with me. I was in quivering pain in my upper back and nothing was covering it. I would write notes when people couldn’t “get” my signs. They removed my tube on Sunday and it was so freeing.</div><div><br /></div><div>I can’t say I was overwhelmed with the new lungs. For one my back was killing me. Rolling and pulling during surgery had thrown out my upper back. It throbbed, it spasmed, and it clinched. I actually felt like I was breathing worse than before the transplant. My chest was tight and I didn’t feel like I could take a deep breath. I was so disappointed with the way I felt. Every person I talked to who had been through transplant had said “oh wait until you take that first breath after transplant, it will feel so GREAT!”. Well I felt like was hell. </div><div><br /></div><div>After 12 to 15 hours of being off the ventilator my surgeon came in and talked about putting me back on the ventilator. At that point it seemed such a HUGE step back that I just cried. They were even talking a possible tracheotomy. I was told my new lungs needed more rest. That they had come with a little party prize in the form of mild pneumonia and my body wasn’t happy. They didn’t say “rejection” to me, but they did to my family. Rejection, chance of death….. All those things we had dreaded. I cried while they knocked me out to put me back on the ventilator. </div><div><br /></div><div>Again I woke up unable to talk, and still in pain. STILL IN PAIN. You have no idea. This was not, owowowow I have a huge cut. This was OMG someone is stabbing hot knives between my shoulder blades and the only thing I can do is lay on my back. </div><div><br /></div><div>Tuesday night I was sitting up and felt a drip down my back. Bill got my nurse and sure enough, my epidural line was leaking. They made calls… nothing happened that night.</div><div><br /></div><div>Wednesday morning they came and assessed that my epidural had in fact migrated out and was less than 1/2mm under my skin. They would come back after my bronch and after they removed the ventilator to replace it. The anesthesiologist said he couldn’t imagine having this surgery at all, let alone with an epidural that had migrated out.</div><div><br /></div><div>Wednesday afternoon came and they were ready to take me off the ventilator again. Finally at like 3pm it came out for what was the last time. I was SOOO over it by then, but my bronchoscopes where starting to look like healthy lungs. I remember looking up at one while I was intubated and just seeing the insides on my lungs looking like white sloughing snake skin. Not mucus either. Just white and grey and dead looking. Wednesday morning my scope looked good, PINK! No mucus still, I became listed as an A-typical cystic. Yeah D’uh we know. </div><div><br /></div><div>On Thursday I had another scope, this would be daily for the next 3 days so I’ll recap them all here. PINK! CLEAR! Healing nicely. No signs of ANYTHING abnormal, and also usually not even enough mucus to have the lab run cultures, the Dr’s where having to add saline to fool the lab into thinking they had enough to grow cultures.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thursday at some point (night and day were all running together at this point) they came and removed one of the extra large drain tubes draining fluid from around my left lung. There were two. We were jokingly calling them 2” PVC pipe, a joke totally lost on city people. They were actually closer to ½” rigid tubes. Later that day they came back and removed the second half of the Y drain in the left. That actually alleviated some of the internal pressure I was feeling. It did nothing for my back (as we were hoping) or for the numbness across my chest.</div><div>I also went for a short walk again. Walking was a real event. Tubes, bags, IV poles, nurses, support people…..</div><div>I finally sent Bill home too. He just needed to get back home and start getting our stuff done. I was stable now, and there was a chance I wouldn’t leave the ICC but would go home straight from there, so no reason to hang for me to go to the floor.</div><div><br /></div><div>Friday I went for a little walk and had a scope. I also got orders to move to the floor. YEAH! So they had to have a PICC line installed, like what I have at home. Once that was in and working they could remove the ART, artirial; think permanent blood gas if you have ever had one, line out of my wrist. This line was a HUGE pain. It caused machines to beep constantly. If I shifted my arm a centimeter it would set off alarms. They could also remove the large central IV line from my neck. HUGE blessings. And then we waited. No bed. At about 9 pm I gave up hoping to be moved and settled into bed for the night.</div><div><br /></div><div>Saturday morning about 3am I started to spike a fever. It came and went all morning until about 11am. Another Bronch and the decision not to do another for a few days to allow my lungs to rest as the constant irritation was not helping. Was also agreed on that a medication that I had initially told them I had troubles with, I INDEED have troubles with and to discontinue it. A lecture over lunch about calorie intake and feeding my healing body. Then news. A BED. I was on the move to the floor. I took a quick walk in the ICC then we moved me out to the floor with all my remaining lines tubes and bags. </div><div>The move to the floor was uneventful but super tiring for me as those fevers had really drug me down. I was excited to get into a bed wider than a toothpick.</div><div>Saturday they also came and removed the final two big lung drain lines, leaving me with two little fine (about the size of fish tank air line) drains, one on each side. With those out they took out my epidural which also meant they could remove the catheter. YEAH! I had NO lines left except for the two drains, IV and 02.. </div><div><br /></div><div>Saturday night was horrible. The pain was awful and sleep was not happening. </div><div><br /></div><div>I had a breakdown on Sunday. I was so tired again. “You look GREAT!” Thanks…weep weep weep. It was decided PAIN control WOULD be found. I was hesitant to start a bunch of narcotics and what I needed, a muscle relaxer, was impossible to give with the surgery. They don’t want you to not breath. </div><div><br /></div><div>Monday morning I woke up in horrible pain at 5am. My bed had gone flat in the night. That SO helped. Pain control had started to be effective and we finally came up with a good plan as long as the bed would stay inflated all night. Instructions were learned by us so we could fix it ourselves. Monday after breakfast I get surprise news that I’m having a bronch. No lunch for me. Yeah. Not.</div><div><br /></div><div>Again, bronch was clear, nothing to suck up and I wouldn’t be having another one until they do the one with the biopsy after I’m released. Best news all day. I was even lucid and interested (oh right and numb enough) to get the “grand” tour of my new lungs. I even got to count the stitches in there on each side. I can see how those bronchs would be fun to give. You have a camera and a vacuum. I can’t tell you how many time I wished pre-transplant that we could just suck the crap out of my lungs</div><div>My surgeon came in to visit and immediately wanted to know why I still had an epidural, and I said I didn’t. “Then why are you on oxygen, you don’t need that, only while that epidural is in, off with THAT,” Now we are down to IV only and two little drains. </div><div><br /></div><div>Tuesday started out with me just being excited. My Auntie and Uncle and baby boy were coming down and bringing their house and ours for post hospital stay. Then in came one of my surgery team to remove the little drains. YEAH! I’m now almost line free. My surgeon proclaims I could go home on Thursday and could have gone home on Wednesday but she wanted to be sure my house was here and ready. Meetings and appointments are set up for Wednesday for discharge info and post transplant instructions. </div><div>About 5pm my family arrived bring some much needed clothes and fresh faces to stare at. Oh, and a bra. God bless them. </div><div><br /></div><div>Wednesday brought my auntie, mom, Greg and I sitting through some late (of course, it’s the hospital!) stupid appointments. We had to read from the book of stupid. All the things I can and cant do post transplant. DON’T SWIM IN STAGNANT WATER. My pets are all ok, no cleaning cat boxes. Ah darn! Sadly this whole list was brought about by things other patients have ACTUALLY done (who might I ask swims in stagnant water?) and gotten sick from. Oh D’uh? Life now is about common sense. Large crowds of questionably healthy people in a small area? Wear a mask. Going to the store, don’t worry about it. The Drs and coordinators have some conflicting stories and I pointed that out to her. She’s super nice and I will like her a lot, but her tune changed when we realized I had already talked to them, so it became “they will tell you…. But I’d prefer…..” Luckily I will again have ONE coordinator who I have 24 hour access to. There are doctors on call to me 24 hours a day also. </div><div>Later, brought the, also late, transplant pharmacist to go over my ever changing (changed less than 5 minutes prior to her walking in the door) medication list. I am taking a fairly light dose of meds which they think will continue to lighten. They are having a very hard time getting a handle on my Prograf (anti-rejection and pro-graphing med) so this one we know will change every single time I have blood work. It’s been changing daily here at the hospital. The also had to add a salt pill to my diet as I’m not getting enough salt intake. Usually a post transplant no-no. </div><div>So the Diet info went out the window for me. Though I am having no trouble putting weight back on after surgery and only lost 5# while I was “down and out”. Blah. Sucky. I was so hoping for that 40# other people have bragged of. Hopefully the walking will do it. ;-)</div><div><br /></div><div>Tomorrow home to the trailer and Bill will be here for a few day visit. He’s been holding down my job at home and will go back to his regular job Thanksgiving week. I’m hoping to be home home the 3rd week of Dec. That’s when the appointments here drop to one a week and I don’t see any reason to stay here for that.</div><div>.</div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-74696888729642865262011-10-21T16:22:00.001-07:002011-10-21T17:04:40.346-07:00Update Oct 2011So I said I would update when there was news to report and basically all there has been for the last few months was wait and update tests to keep the results current.<div><br /></div><div>I was in SF yesterday and now have some news. </div><div><br /></div><div>One of the tid bits of the summer was finding that my regular pulminologist (Dr Blue Eyes, if you've been reading here a while) was leaving the hospital where I had been seeing him. While I was bummed to lose him as my reg. Dr I found he was leaving to head up the transplant unit at UCSF. YEAH! I really wasn't losing him at all. </div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>As he said yesterday, "How does it feel to be a VIP? You're Dr is now in charge."</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>"Hum, like something might get done."</div><div><br /></div><div>So I ratted myself out about the IV round I had just done, seeing as I was told prior if I was on any IV antibiotics that they would suspend my listing, which is true, of someone who doesn't have CF and chronic infection that HAS to be managed. I double checked with my new reg doc and asked them what they thought, and they all felt that someone had dropped the informational ball and that rule shouldn't apply to someone with CF, but maybe I should wait to say anything until it was over and Doc was there. They were correct. </div><div><br /></div><div>Doc assured me that any antibiotic use for me was FINE. Please tell them from now on, and there would be NO more confusion in relation to CF patients. He was mostly unhappy because they should/could have adjusted my allocation (place in line for lungs) number up based on the IV useage. However, he was more concerned about how low my allocation number was considering my oddball antibodies and general 02 needs.</div><div><br /></div><div> We had traveled down the night before my appointments, so at the time of my appointment I was at my worst possible shape, without being totally sick. I was due for my medication and hadn't slept worth a piss. Anyone who's traveled with me knows I don't sleep well anytime I'm away from home, it takes me days to settle in. </div><div><br /></div><div>He asked me to do a little walk up and down the hall, which I totally bombed. Even with 6 liters of 02 my oxygen level dropped to 81 and my heart rate was SKY high. He ordered a quick spirometry test which tests the volume of my lungs. I also bombed. Dr told me I was welcome to take the test at home and to feel free to um, fail miserably. *blink blink, wink wink* IE Don't go in jacked up on all your meds, don't try to impress me. The only adjustments they can make to my score at this point is based on Volume and Oxygen need. Bombing yesterday was ideal.</div><div><br /></div><div>So the outcome at this point is: my 02 levels are to be 2/4/6 liters. 2 while at rest watching tv/read a book/on the puter. 4 if I'm doing any walking around/going to the bathroom/cooking dinner (silly man, I don't cook). 6 if I am under any physical exertion at all. AT ALL. He said, I KNOW you aren't going to do this, but this is my recommendation and you "should" *blink blink wink wink* tell me that you are following it. </div><div><br /></div><div>Got it. No problem. Noted.</div><div><br /></div><div>My volume was down another 2%, taking me to 20%. Basically where I was a year ago.</div><div><br /></div><div>I do not know what the CAT scan looked like, probably crap and scar tissue.</div><div><br /></div><div>Doc was SHOCKED to see my echo was normal and my EKG was normal too. With my normally high heart rate (over 109 per min), and the added heart rate due to the low 02 (running at an average of 119-125) he really expected hypertension but there was almost NONE. There is some. We've known that for 3 years. Totally normal and within the reversible ranges.</div><div><br /></div><div>He listened to my lungs and restated it's clear why I was mistreated (even he knows how mean ya'll are to me..hahaha) for so long. My lungs sound TOTALLY clear. There was one little area of my lower left lung (the area that bleeds all the time) that crackled, some. </div><div><br /></div><div>He said: He wants me on the top of the list for the next 6 months. Period. (Um, and after that, what then? I didn't ask.) He wants EVERY lung offered to me so we can cross match antibodies. We are still looking at only 2 out of 10 lungs being a match for me.</div><div><br /></div><div>He basically wants this ball rolling NOW. It's been too long and we've been milking this along for too long, <i>really</i> pushing our luck. He's been saying that for the last year while he wasn't at UCSF, "<i>what IS their hold up</i>?" Now he gets a chance to find out. </div><div><br /></div><div>It's all looking good. Really. I know it sounds bad and awful and icky, but it's all leading toward NEW LUNGS. And maybe my friggin life back!</div><div><br /></div><div>Of course it means maybe winter in SF. Ummm EWWW.</div><div><br /></div><div>Oh, and on the way to Stanford for my friends sons' appointment (which is why we had a two day trip rather than our usual one day) we passed the turn to the town where we will be parking our trailer for the 6 weeks of post care. REALLY easy. Super easy and practically a straight shot. Pulling the trailers and motor home through will only be slightly challenging for part of the trip, mostly because of traffic and narrow lanes. No hard maneuvers to make on the SF end at all. Was good to know and see mostly all for myself. Makes one less thing for me to stew over and worry about in the hospital.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-58958553430808625222011-07-25T18:46:00.000-07:002011-07-25T18:58:38.140-07:00The Writing PromptSo I am not a writer by any means. Odd since I loved to write in school, but I like to write from the places created in my mind, this was surprisingly hard.<div><br /></div><div>You Can find the prompt here: <a href="http://www.swva.net/fred1st/wif.htm">The Writing Prompt</a><br /><div>My Friends do it better:</div><div><a href="http://zubegirl.com/all-things-zube/where-im-from/">Zube</a></div><div><a href="http://www.amysmusings.com/where-im-from">Amy</a></div><div>++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++</div><div><br /></div></div><div><p>I am from the little white house with the green trim, from Folgers coffee and huge pots of beef stroganoff.</p> <p>I am from the covered front porch, wood stoves, boiling hot in the summer and perfect in the winter, good ghosts and tons of kids.</p> <p>I am from 2 palm trees and the damn nasturtiums.</p> <p>I am from Christmas’s on new years and fiery tempers, from Sturgis’ and Jacobs, Granny’s, Nana’s and Aunties.</p> <p>I am from the long living and long winded.</p> <p>From measure twice and cut once and be good or I’ll know before you’re home.</p> <p>I am from the Catholic and the Lutheran, from believing in God without walls, <i>or all the kneeling</i>.</p> <p>I'm from the foggy little cow town, from homemade cinnamon rolls and lemon meringue pie.</p> <p>From the man flatfooted man who yearned to be a soldier, a trucker, a carpenter, a housewife, an inn keeper, and the woman who could do it all.</p> <p>I am from my memories and a plaid covered book, from notes in a bible, from boxes filled with everything ever created in school, hand-me-downs, and an old cedar chest.<span style="mso-bidi-font-size:13.5pt;font-family:Georgia;color:black;background: wheat"><o:p></o:p></span></p></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-7139557938901797332010-09-26T17:05:00.000-07:002010-09-26T17:23:25.062-07:00Facebook has caused me to seriously neglect my blog. I can one liner update over there and 90% of my 5 person reader base is over there anyway. <div><br /></div><div>However I should probably update to say I did. </div><div><br /></div><div>So the last big (evasive for me) test is finally CORRECTLY on the books for the end of Oct. At the same time I will meet with the surgeons who may or may not perform the surgery on me. I think I will go ahead and list at the beginning of Dec. My lung function is no better... though not worse either... than when they gave me a year to live in '08. I was considering that this week. That almost two exact years ago, my doctors were sure I wouldn't make it home ever again, let alone live through the year without a transplant. Chuckles on them. I did tell him, he didn't know me very well yet and he may want to reconsider his statement. Teach him not to listen.</div><div><br /></div><div>However, things are what they are, and I will have to make this choice at some point. Might as well do it now. *insert eye rolling here* I'm not thrilled. Trust me.</div><div><br /></div><div>So another thing had me chuckling this week as I was correcting G's homework. His teacher (not seriously) said to me when we turned in his sample work, "Didn't you know correcting in Red will bruise his fragile ego." I remember hearing this when he was still in public school too, so it's not a "homeschool/hippy dippy notion". If his ego is that fragile, red ink is the least of his worries. I swear if she'd been serious I might have gone a bought a BIGGER red pen. ;-)</div><div><br /></div><div>I correct everything in red. It's easy for both of us to spot. I correct pages and pages in workbooks. Ohh suck on this one.. I only give 1/2 credit for his corrected math problems too. *Gasp* ...And I calculate letter/percent grades. (On the computer, in a spreadsheet, because, YES, I am that anal.)</div><div><br /></div><div>Now your wondering how his grades are huh? Straight B's. I'm a really tough teacher. I might not ride him very hard about sitting down and doing X amount of work a day, but I do expect what he does to be done correctly, the first time. Which is why I have the spreadsheets. I can see if "failing" is the leading trend and we can make whatever adjustments we need.</div><div><br /></div><div>I will be extremely glad when algebra is over. Just saying.</div><div><br /></div><div>Off to start writing all the How to, What to do, Who to call, How to take care of, and What to do if... lists that my family will need for the surgery time. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-62888543771931121592010-06-30T14:42:00.000-07:002010-06-30T14:54:16.354-07:00the TACK BOXI just finished refinishing my tack box my dad made me when I was showing cows, some 20+ years ago.<div><br /></div><div>True to my dads nature, this isn't just a "tack box", this is A TACK BOX. 4 foot long, 3 foot deep, 2.5 feet tall, made out of 1" oak plywood with a 3/4" thick oak top. Literally almost too heavy to pick up empty, let alone filled with tack. It's served many uses during it's 20+ years with me. It used to get hauled to the fair filled with cow stuff. It's housed my horse tack at rented stables. It's stored blankets for beds. But for the last 10 years it has been a toy box. A totally packed to the top, toy box.<br /></div><div><br /></div><div>With the recent de-cluttering of G's room, or rather the mass shoveling out and throwing away, the TACK BOX lost it's usefulness in G's room. He didn't keep any toys, thus none to store. We needed to make room for a dresser that he may or may not use. So what to do with the TACK BOX?</div><div><br /></div><div>My mom offered to keep it at her house, but the TACK BOX has never seen a day outside in it's life. Like my moms chopping block and my twin bed (that takes 3 men and a boy to move), these are rare treasures made by my dad that he just doesn't do anymore, or I don't think ever.</div><div><br /></div><div>So in case the TACK BOX must see outside time somewhere I decided it needed to be sealed and preserved. So I have been rubbing Tung Oil into the oak top, and Thompson's water seal on the sides and, when I can turn it over, the bottom. At least this way, G will have it to fill with toys again someday, because this damn TOY BOX will last forever!</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-72697531346537922732010-04-04T14:44:00.000-07:002010-04-04T14:49:07.346-07:00Easter CancelledOn account of the snow. <div><br /></div><div>We made it out to my moms in the rain and wind. I don't mind the rain and the wind, we could have sat at home in it, or at her house... didn't matter.</div><div><br /></div><div>15 minutes after getting there the rain turned white and started to stick. We watched it for about 15 min before we decided it wasn't going to let up and Bunker Hill was going to become an unpassable bitch quick.</div><div><br /></div><div>We left her house and made it to Bunker and there was already over 3" of snow sitting in Russ' driveway. It was an easy drive, just slow going, thankful for 4x4 because it was slick-slick. </div><div><br /></div><div>Passed uncountable idiots headed out to "play" in the snow. Ranchers love that. /sarcasm.</div><div><br /></div><div>Bridgette wanted the window down. She pulled her head in and she was covered in snow. It was pretty funny!</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-58043029653241774592010-03-12T22:40:00.000-08:002010-03-12T23:27:06.295-08:00<div>First, my IV went fine thank you, but between it and it's time schedule, milking, feeding, and working, there was no time for blogging. </div><div><br /></div><div>So lets re-cap since it's been since Feb since I was here last. </div><div><br /></div><div>The kid count was bucks-11 and does-6 out of 13 does. Not great, but totally managable.</div><div><br /></div><div>I was down to my last week of IV and my first week back to work after some IV time off. I'm really glad I scheduled work around this thing because it made me feel like CRAP. But the infection seems better, which was the goal. It's all about the end result yanno?</div><div><br /></div><div>In the middle of January the breeder we got out first toggs from contacted us because she was selling out and wanted to know if we wanted any does. We said yes and took in two plus a buck. The does were thin when they got here, and probably bred, but the looked a little thin and not up close to kidding. Since when we bought them and the buck, and we were the ones to remove the buck, they could have been due anywhere from NOW to June. So by looking at them, they looked healthy but at least a few months out if bred at all.</div><div><br /></div><div>Fast forward to the 4th of March when one of these does started to favor a front leg. It was late, pouring rain, and getting dark so I vowed to pull her in the next morning and check it out. The next morning she's down by the fence and really weak. We haul her inside, dig into her feet, which looked fine, and pen her up inside thinking she's being bullied out of the feed, though she looks OK. We start her on all sort of appetite inducing drugs, probiotics, and some antibiotics to be safe. On the 5th at night milking, about dusk, we get out to the goats and hear this noise. Something like a rat caught in a trap. It's hideous and nothing a goat should make. Greg finds his alpine kid stuck in a fence and we think all is right in the world. I walk into the barn and hear this NOISE again. It's trapped, it's dying and I can't FIND IT. I start walking toward the noise and see the penned goat (Mehaw) standing over a baby (WHAT!), it's dry, it is NOT making THAT NOISE. Over in the far far corner is a flat brown blob. I think dead kid. No, no, IT'S MAKING THAT NOISE! I holler for Greg, he comes, picks up o' flat one, shakes it a few times, and puts it with mom. She's interested, but you can tell she's concentrating on not falling over. We walk her up to, and lift her onto the milk stand and try to coax her to just eat a little grain. Nada. So on the way back to her pen, we've boxed up the babies to take home, we see what looks like a foot..... I say to Greg and he says to me "Is that a foot?" We think it was testing the temperature... nope to cold, I'll come later.....</div><div><br /></div><div>So Greg just decides to pull this baby, mom is tired and obviously beyond done. She was thin before twins, we're scared shitless to see what she'd look like after triplets. Now we have a bag of bone with a hide thrown over, who had triplets. She's stressed. She we grab her little friend she came with for some company and hopefully a little encouragement. </div><div><br /></div><div>The next morning she looks like she might have eaten, we keep up with the probiotics and keep bringing her in for grain. She has just about no milk, but really I wasn't expecting any, so a little was encouraging. Her little friend looks suspiciously like she might be making an udder. A few weeks I hope before she'd kid. I should have known my luck doesn't run like that.</div><div><br /></div><div>We finally brave sexing the kids Mehaw had..... triplet does. The flat one, we call her the little Weetard, is a trooper and the first one on her feet. All three and very weak in the back ends and take a full day and half to stand alone.</div><div><br /></div><div>On the evening of the 8th (Sunday) we go out to milk and find the little friend with twin bucks. Mehaw has stolen them and is feeding one, with her head in the feeder eating. Whatever makes her happy! We opt to just leave them there with the moms, for one, Mehaw is the strongest we've seen her in a week, and she's now plowing through the grain we offer her, for two, I work the next two days back to back long days, and two less bottle babies won't hurt my feelings, and three, bucks... BOO! </div><div><br /></div><div>Monday morning the 9th we go out to milk and for the first milking in a while, find no kids! Only my best doe is looking CLOSE. She's not eating and she's hanging off by herself. Not things she does normally. She NEVER misses a meal. I warn Bill, who is going to milk for me while I'm at work, that he will likely find babies from Star when he gets there, and to look for them, she will probably hide them. At 4pm I get a picture text. It's taken from our gate. Way at the top of the hill you can see a couple specks.. the text says "fucking star had her babies all the way at the top of the hill." I get text after text for the next hour, with phone calls mixed in.... what to do, how to do it.... "Star had twins" "Oh no, there are two more that she's not taking care of" "Wait, she's running back and forth between them" "How do I get them off the hill?" "She doesn't want me to take them what do I do" "Two bucks two does" "I'll leave the bucks with her" "No, wait, no bucks I'm just bringing them all home" So Star- quad does. I don't see them until after work, and one is the tiniest thing I have ever seen. She's not even as big as my mini dachshund. She's perfectly formed, but her little hooves are the size of dimes. The biggest is a BIG kid, normal twin size, about 8-9lbs. The middle two look like normal quad kid size, probably 5-6lbs. One black, 3 brown.</div><div><br /></div><div>The next night, Tuesday, after a hellish day; which included, but not limited to, waking up to my son lying on the bathroom floor curled in a ball crying, calling my husband home from work to help me with my job, and testing 700 cows, we finally make it out to milk, at like 9PM. It's dark, it's POURING rain, it's cold as hell, and we pull up to a mass of goats at the upper sheds. I know somethings up, I can tell by the look on their guilty little faces. Either they are kidding, eating something they shouldn't be, or breaking something.</div><div><br /></div><div>Turns out the last two toggs were kidding. Nothing eventful here, unless you count Bill trying to catch the 2 year old and falling on his ass, which was rather friggin' funny......</div><div><br /></div><div>Jade- twins buck/doe</div><div>Hope- twins buck/doe</div><div><br /></div><div>So lets recap again shall we.</div><div><br /></div><div>In four days we had:</div><div><br /></div><div>Mehaw- trip does</div><div>Eregon- twin bucks</div><div>Star- quad does</div><div>Jade- twins buck/doe</div><div>Hope- twins buck/doe</div><div><br /></div><div>Yes that is 13 kids in 4 days. 9 of which are does. All of which are toggs. We went from only 3 togg does up to this point, to 12. Thanks girls for evening the odds... all at once. Holy HELL.</div><div><br /></div><div>We have one doe we KNOW is left to kid. She was due yesterday, she will kid this weekend, which means she too will kid while I'm at work next week, she's just a bitch like that. Yes Sarah, that one!</div><div><br /></div><div>I sent one milker home with Lori today. I have a call in to the dairy to make a run up there tomorrow, but they are horrible at returning calls. Actually if they wait a little bit maybe Mehaws little friend will feel better because she can totally go, there is nothing impressive about her except her size, and I'll keep Mehaw for that. I have a group of yearling milkers to take, none impressive but all milking, and I think my reserve champ milking yearling (kind of unheard of win for a yearling milker) from last year shall go, I'm just not impressed with her either this year. </div><div><br /></div><div>Well that's all for now, if you don't hear from me again for a while, you'll know I drown in goat milk. Or the babies ate me.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-67491809976833848372010-02-21T22:08:00.000-08:002010-02-21T22:32:12.911-08:00We tease my husband about the time he said "so when are you selling some of these goats, you're not keeping them all right?" and 5 does died within a week.... Or the time he said "Hey didn't you say we were selling a couple of these bucks" and two died the next day from feed related bloat.<div><br /></div><div>Today I said to the boy, "I need to send some of these kids out to the garage, they're ready." He says shush shush shush, the last time you said that Whammo we had three does kid.</div><div><br /></div><div>So today we get to the goats to find his "new" Peaches with a baby hanging out. Not what I want to wake up to, I'm sure it wasn't high on her list of ways to wake up either.</div><div><br /></div><div>For about 10 seconds I could see him start to panic. Then he asked about the legs, and I noticed she had a head and only one leg and what was out was dry, she'd been at it for a while it seemed we figured the baby was dead, so I told him to go ahead and pull... he felt to see if maybe he could feel the other foot and the baby licked him. He had no problem getting the baby out, the hard part really was done she just needed a boost. </div><div><br /></div><div>I start milking and see another doe who's looking like she's ready, so I have him haul her in so we don't have to wander around to find her later.</div><div><br /></div><div>We go to have lunch and decide to head back to check on the impending birth, and find a different doe kidding. She was looking close, but not that close, but she's kidded before, so we weren't concerned. Greg didn't even call for me, she was in trouble by the sounds of it, but she was too far up the hill for me to go after her. Greg brings her in with baby in tow, or maybe he brought the baby in with her in tow. She wasn't done. The first baby was just big and she needed a little boost, she probably would have been ok on her own, but we were there. So we're waiting for her to get with it already to have baby number 2, and she literally lays down, sneezed and plop, there was baby two.</div><div><br /></div><div>Just about this time, the doe who we thought was getting ready in the morning, decides to get the show on the road. Only it was a really long road. Very very long road with lots of stop signs. I am pretty sure this was the second slowest kidding I have ever watched. And she was a bitcher. Whine, bitch, complain, stop pushing. So dramatic. So here's the boy, coaching her. Common Keep Pushing. Like this.. Urrgghhh (at that moment I'm thinking, OMG the poor woman he marries) and about that time the doe has half leaned against the wall and is letting her butt end sink to the ground and she gives him this look like "OH for gods sake shut the hell up with the pushing." She rolled her eyes in only the way a true togg can, and gave him what we call togg lip, where they wrinkle the skin on their chins and stick out their lower lip, and just look truly pissed. He said, "I don't think she like my Lamaze coaching. Well fine then, but KEEP PUSHING! "</div><div><br /></div><div>So the count today (didn't I say I thought I was getting break)</div><div><br /></div><div>Peaches- single buck (who is an escape artist already, waltzing back and forth through the fences)</div><div>Firestorm- twins doe/buck</div><div>Firecracker- single buck</div><div><br /></div><div>6 flippin' gallons of milk a day that I'm bringing home and we're not even bringing it all home, I'm out of containers to haul it in. Aurgh!</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-66037111045473719992010-02-19T20:29:00.000-08:002010-02-19T21:03:40.782-08:00It was bound to happen. Today was the day of the bad kidding. We get one every year. The tear inducing kind. (not mine oddly) That's one thing I love about my son. I'm not sure whether he's sympathizing with the goat or himself, but when the going gets bad, homeboy gets in there and gets it done, usually shedding more than one tear while doing it. We have two small two year olds. We knew they were small, this is no shock and we were frankly surprised when the first kidded with no problem. This one wasn't so lucky, and of course, is the boys favorite.<div><br /></div><div>It's never easy to pull a baby. It's really not easy when she's screaming in pain. You know it's hard, you know it's ugly, and you know it HAS.TO.BE.DONE. The boy is my trooper. I couldn't do it alone, just holding the doe for him to pull today was just about too much, my air left the building. We got it done. I should say, he got it done. All I do is direct. It's like kidding Cal-Trans. I'm the one holding the shovel. </div><div><br /></div><div>That was one big friggin' buck. Yeah, of course, after all that work, a buck. A really friggin' big one. We thought he was born with a broken neck, but he was just limp limp. We rubbed and rubbed and he popped up and stood before we were done milking, how on those poor legs I don't know. This is one reason why small twins are always better. </div><div><br /></div><div>So lets see what's the update now: (hell what's the date?)</div><div><br /></div><div>2-18 Tundra twins doe/buck (gah, she's a psycho.)</div><div>2-19 Dawn single buck (moose)</div><div><br /></div><div>One of our babies is the dude at a frat party who chugs his beer and then crushes the can on his head yelling AURRGGGHHH DONE!</div><div>Yeah, she's that kind of eater. And she's about 3lbs. Teenie tiny. Ok, maybe not that small, but she's little. She only stands 10" tall. But she's all about a bottle then she gets all wiggly, totally reminding me of the frat party dude. ;-)</div><div><br /></div><div>Personally feeling OK. Off my predisone right now, unless I'm working. I can't stand the swelling and puffiness anymore. Now my back hurts like hell. I go get my IV port put in on Wednesday for 10-14 days of antibiotics at home. That will be fun to work around. I had the time off, but a client called and wanted to get back on test, and I didn't want to put them off too far. March sucks for me. Plus my auntie is having back surgery and when I find out when I would like to be there. It's the least I can do for my uncle after them sitting with me through all my dads surgeries.</div><div><br /></div><div>So the goats are milking me out of house and home and I'm feeling OK as long as I don't overdo. All is well and right. </div><div><br /></div><div>Off to feed these glutton guts, need to use the 3 gallons of milk in the fridge somehow. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-91874752133020640752010-02-17T19:55:00.000-08:002010-02-17T19:56:18.654-08:00And the obers are making up for the last two year dry spell of no doe kids.<div> </div><div>2-17 Autumn twin does</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-69917216762236211252010-02-16T11:48:00.000-08:002010-02-16T17:02:51.053-08:00For those keeping score: To date:<div><br /></div><div>2-11 Stormy twin bucks (one rode the short bus to town)</div><div>2-13 Capers twins- doe/buck</div><div>2-14 Shikari Twins- doe/buck</div><div>2-14 Leah- Abort (Greg's alpines are off to a roaring success! /sarcasm)</div><div>2-15 Charlotte- twin bucks (thank god she wasn't up to any records this year)</div><div>2-16 Escapade- single doe (first freshening yearling)</div><div>2-16 Endora- twin bucks (first freshening two year old)</div><div><br /></div><div>Not quite half way. So far we have 3 keepers and one buck we're going to grow out a little to "see". Greg's not having any luck so far with his alpine project but he's had a great offer from Sarah that I think he's going to take her up on. He has one alpine left to kid but she's a real bitch, and I wouldn't put it past her to eat them just to spite us. ;-)</div><div><br /></div><div>So far I'm drowning in milk. Remind me of this is a month when I'm scrounging for more. Though with this doe rate I'm liable to have to buy a calf. I'm really only milking 3 of those does so far (charlotte had her kids til this am, and the other two JUST kidded) and I'm getting 2 gallons a day. Charlotte will add another at least gallon a day to the milk alone, but those two firsties I don't except much from. With only 4 mouths to feed after Thursday...... I'm freezing it as fast as they produce it.</div><div><br /></div><div>I expect by the end of today at least one more will kid if not 2 or 3.</div><div><br /></div><div>====================================================</div><div>Edit to add:</div><div><br /></div><div>2-16 Maddy twins doe/black both black (She makes the birth of the year. Our first black doe in years, and the first doe she's ever had.)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-13296191674758463202010-02-14T07:37:00.000-08:002010-02-14T07:42:34.866-08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6FE_cb8TkxKPpkCYmaKb_FbKK3gWfbT-VHLbwQLGUUyYgYYdwOSGlLF7pZX0hQEQBMPY7XWvVVGUm6haQfs1VdxXDYBVfII5F9vY9VI5VhUV3GbKjpGL8otEaOCLm8BKP10e72JXYEns/s1600-h/vday-girl1.png"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 199px; height: 263px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6FE_cb8TkxKPpkCYmaKb_FbKK3gWfbT-VHLbwQLGUUyYgYYdwOSGlLF7pZX0hQEQBMPY7XWvVVGUm6haQfs1VdxXDYBVfII5F9vY9VI5VhUV3GbKjpGL8otEaOCLm8BKP10e72JXYEns/s320/vday-girl1.png" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5438123789172281570" /></a><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>V-Day self love day brought to you by the ever so slightly hung over <a href="http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/snackiepoo/~3/cbVvgrTY6oo/">Snackipoo</a>. (They had a rockin' valentines day party last night.)</div><div><br /></div><div>So the game is to list one thing you like about yourself this V-Day. </div><div><br /></div><div>I've had this picture downloaded for 4 days, you'd have thought I might have put a little thought into this. So I guess my power of procrastination shouldn't be it.</div><div><br /></div><div>I think I'll go with my dedication. To pretty much everything <i>except </i>this blog. Work, animals, friends... I'm pretty much there until you either shit on me too many times (which changes daily) or shut the door in my face. </div><div><br /></div><div>The end.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-1940414207603608422010-02-08T22:42:00.000-08:002010-02-08T22:46:23.582-08:00My chickens are high. It is winter. We all know that. You know, fairly cold, windy, rain.. I mean LOOK outside, it's not pretty, well most of the time. These moron freaks are LAYING every darn day. While most chickens are smartly molting and I dunno, just eating, this time of year, mine are making short work of my refrigerator space. Bill is actually fixing eggs before work. We only own 4 of these hens, 4 are supposed to be my moms, but her coops isn't ready yet. Thankfully only 5 are laying.<div><br /></div><div>Greg's foot is on the mend. Still icing daily and wednesday we'll start hot/cold soaks to start trying to break down the bruising. Yeah! Fun! Not.</div><div><br /></div><div>Still.No.Babies.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-87178383234534753242010-02-03T20:21:00.000-08:002010-02-03T20:32:55.817-08:00Kidding season is baring down on me. We clipped about half the milkers today. Tomorrow we'll catch the skitzy ones and get them done. We did manage to get all the kids caught and clipped and it looks like one might go down the road with the "not bred" does. She's young, but pfft I just don't need her. She might be due late, but whatever hasn't kidded by the end of March, and doesn't look close by then... is hitting the auction trailer.<div><br /></div><div>I am tentatively willing to say I think my one and only AI stuck. Though I thought she came back in heat, it seems she's going to kid on her AI date. She'll make a liar of me and fill her udder a month early just to screw with my mind. </div><div><br /></div><div>Other than that it's a crap shoot from now till the end of march. I pen bred and have dates for all but 4 of the does, those are all the kids I bred to one buck, all penned in the same pen I can't see in from the barn. Out of 21 breeding that's not so bad.</div><div><br /></div><div>My mom went back to the DR today. SHOCK! I haven't heard what they said so will call her later.</div><div><br /></div><div>I have plans to do 10 days of IV antibiotics at home the end of this month to the beginning of next month. Other than that I am still in the testing phase. I'm holding off on all further tests until I get these anti-s done. My arm had to heal from the last tests before we could have a port put in for the antibiotics, which is why I'm not doing these over this week off. My arm finally has healed, now it just looks stained where the hematoma was. Heat and ice helped immensely.</div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-68422067701959573722010-01-19T15:52:00.000-08:002010-01-19T15:57:11.915-08:00<p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Friday was to be a fairly easy day appointment wise because I ran all over yesterday to make it that way. The only test I had for this day was the Right Heart Catherization. This is were they thread a wire through my vein to my heart to measure the pressures there and test its strength. I was only having to have the right side tested, so this should be easy. The only part of this test that had me nervous was the sedative as I have never been sedated for anything. I have no idea how I’ll react, and since I’m allergic to just about everything short of water, I wasn’t looking forward to it at all. Plus I had been warned it would require anywhere from 4 to 8 hours of recovery time. In case you havn’t noticed from reading here, I don’t do lie around and wait well. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Since my 24 hour test had been such a fail yesterday I was told I could check in at the hospital at 7 am, which to me screamed GO HOME 2 HOURS EARLIER, so we were hot on that and arrived at the admitting room at 7am! It was colder than a refrigerator in there. They were reconstructing the area and I don’t think there were any walls at all behind that plastic. From admitting (Do you have your 250 deductible? Oh lady trust me, that’s covered, I had a 3000 prescription arrive at my door two days ago!), we headed up to the cardiac unit for the test. From the fridge to the frying pan. It was like a 40 degree temp jump on the elevator ride up. Mind you this whole time I’m carrying this green bag, the type you can get at most stores this day to bring home your groceries and be all eco-friendly, in it I’m packing my wallet, nebulizer and meds, and a gallon jug of urine. I’ll give a second to let that sink in. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Recovered? </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So at some point I need to drop this at a lab. I have the grand idea I’ll try to talk the nurse I get into it. Nothing says How are you today like asking someone to walk around carrying a jug of your urine. At least I sealed it up in a plastic bag, sheesh!</span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">We check into the waiting area and wait to get called back into the “holding area”. My nurse comes to get me, and he’s very formal. Frankly he’s a little bitch and I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to try really hard not the eat him alive. He turns me into the bathroom and gives me the gown speech and the “how to properly lock the door” speech, and today I don’t bother to hurry him along. I learned my lesson yesterday; I just tune him out instead.</span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I’m into a bed before 8am. Doctors start to pour by and I’m just not paying much attention. All the while my nurse, Brad, is hooking me up to heart monitors, blood pressure cuffs, and his sidekick gets the job of handing off the “bag”. Once she comes back she gets to hook up my regular IV, for fluids and the sedative. At this point one doctor decides they are going to try to get this done through an arm vein and not my neck. This makes me happy, he also tells me it’s exactly the same procedure as when they set my port lines for the IV’s I normally have. So I question the sedative and he says I shouldn’t need it! YEAH! This means I get to go home as soon as they are done! </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Brad and I are yakking about their unit goals and teasing around, he’s really a nice guy. He prepped my neck for an IV with lidocane just in case, this is important later. Totally gay, but really sweet and not the complete bitch I thought he was going to be. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Now, Brad, gets to set the IV into a larger vein for them to switch out for a catheter in the procedure room. He nails it no problem in the big vein in my elbow of my right arm. (Keep notes on this folks, you’ll loose track soon.) He’s flushing it with fluid and can’t get the syringe unscrewed, and I can’t help him because he’s holding down my good arm. While we wait for the unit head to come over to help him, he explains that he doesn’t have any grip in that hand from surgery that he had to have after saving a patients life holding off an aterial bleed for 45 minutes, resulting in nerve damage in his wrist. Suddenly I’m pretty happy to have him as my nurse. This also explains his tick. He does this hand wave, finger flex, wrist twirl that I really thought was just his tick, turns out it’s because his hand is numb. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Now we wait. I had to wait for someone else to be done before they can start me, so they go get Bill, and I send him off for breakfast and to chill for a while, but let him know we won’t have to be there as long, YEAH! </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Another nurse comes to get me at about 9 and we walk back to the procedure room. They lay me out on the slab and ask me if I’d like any happy juice and I decline, the IV is in dude, the worst is over……… </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">In come the two wanna be doctors who are going to do the procdure. They look like they are about 12 and 13. I’m good with that, the hard stuff is done, all the have to do is follow the lines. So they switch out the IV for a catheter, which is not a job done without pain, but it’s manageable. In goes a wire guide. I can feel it go through my shoulder and I tell them that, and they say, “You shouldn’t be able to feel that!?”, umm sorry… I can? I tell them where the end currently is, and they both get rather quite and say, um, wow, she shouldn’t be able to tell that. Again, sorry, but I can. And Oh, SHE isn’t sedated, and SHE can HEAR YOU. They root around in there for a few minutes and conclude that the vein is occluded and they need to set another IV. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">In comes supervising doctor, because tweedle dee and dum aren’t sure how to proceed. Another vein, into the neck…. One of the two is holding pressure on my arm where they took out the catheter, and saying to the others, Um, she’s still bleeding, A-Lot.</span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Again, NOT SEDATED!</span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">And, you don’t have to whisper I can feel the blood. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So he tries small talk instead. I tell them not to worry they are doing fine, I’m fine, go ahead and try for another. Super doctor thinks they should try a vein in that same arm and use ultrasound to be sure it’s not occluded.</span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">One of them drew the short straw and trys to set another IV, while the other one holds pressure on my arm that’s still gushing blood. There is a lot of, right there, no little more, no back out, forward, to the left, right there, no too far. Then the debate is on as to how to hold the IV in place, as it’s barely in the vein, and sterilize the area, while one holds the IV. Turns out they can’t do it, and they lose that spot too. So the other one trys. About 2” below where the first one had, thinking the problem was that the IV needle was too short for the area of my arm that they were trying to access. I suggest a longer needle while they are cleaning up and getting ready to start again. You know, mostly to remind them NOT SEDATED! </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">That one? Fail. He rooted around and came up with what appeared to be a good stick, but by the time they sterilized everything, it was occluded. More consult, what to do, where to go now....</span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Now super Doctor says switch to the other arm, and we’ll have a nurse set the IV by ultrasound. Best damn idea all day. Plus he swung by my head to offer happy juice again. I decline again. I’m no martyr, I am just really freaked about the sedative and would rather deal with the pain. Which really isn’t all that bad at the time. I mean I didn’t cry at all. After having someone try, and fail, to shove a catheter up your nose, this is a freakin’ cakewalk. Super nurse comes in, nails the IV and we FINALLY get a good stick that isn’t in a vein that’s shot. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It takes appox. 15 minutes to get the data they needed. I’m making them a little nervous by telling them where the wire/balloon is the whole time. They blocked the screen thinking I was looking, until the nurse told them my eye were closed anyway. Haha. Poor guys. I bet they hope all their future patients are nicely sedated. I did joke with them at one point that they probably wished I had been sedated. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">My nurse helps me sit up and the room takes a spin around me. Lying flat on my back on a hard table for 2 hours had done in my vertigo, not to mention I had no feeling in my legs or feet. We head back to the “holding” area and plunk me in a bed. Looks like I get to rest for a while after all. My neck is itching like bitch, my stomach is lurchy,, and my head is loopy. One of the nurses grabs me a jello like product in a color that isn’t anything close to orange and I eat that. That settles the tummy and will eventually help the head. They let me get dressed, pull out the fluid IV, cut my tags, and let me free! Well, actually Willy Wong (no shit I can’t make that crap up) gets the honor of wheeling me out. Good thing I was sitting on the elevator! </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">On the drive home I find I have 6 bruises from IV attempts or blood draws, my neck is swollen and itchy from the lidocane (I’m allergic, goody!), my torso is broke out in a rash (I’m allergic to the contrast dye too!!), and the two spots where Dee and Dum tried to put in my IV are already black. Like BLACK BLACK, and the size of a golf ball. </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I didn’t take a picture of those two but they look like eyeballs. Black ones. The really weird part is this bruise is it will “take” a pattern. While I was sleeping the bruise took on the pattern of the wrinkles of my pillowcase. </span></span></p>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-20023974824822512832010-01-16T14:13:00.000-08:002010-01-16T14:15:38.945-08:00Inquiring minds want to know<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>We left on Wednesday for my 2 day trip to San Fran for testing, which means 3 days away from home. We left the critters here in the care of my mother and son and I (god help me) took Bill with me, because they said I'd need a driver home after the last test.<div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>We stayed in Mill Valley which is this little quaint old historic mill town just this side of SF. The motel was about half of what I would have spent in the city and I probably drove less time getting from there to the hospital than I would have if I had actually stayed IN the city. Our motel room was HUGE, but upstairs, which sucked with the unlit walkways at 6 AM each morning.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>The first day of testing was lab work first thing in the AM, with the lab tech who wasn't thrilled that I could have cared less about her "talk" about the proper way to take a urine sample. Lady, this isn't my first rodeo, save the sweet talk. When I tried to rush her through her little speech she says "I'm <b>trying</b> to make<b> sure</b> you'<b>re</b> not con<b>fus</b>ed!" (she was oriental with a think accent, I'm not sure which of us she was trying to direct) I'm pretty sure at that point I rolled my eyes... but I TRIED really hard NOT to. Isn't it all about the effort?</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"></span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Once the vampire drew her 13 (yes really 13) vials of blood we were off to have hoses crammed where they just don't belong. Luckily all of my tests this day, with the exception of one add on were in one building, this saved on my lung function and made for a MUCH easier day.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Up to the 6th floor to the GI clinic to have a 24 hour acid test and a Esophageal blah blah blah test. Hey, I take the tests, I don't memorize the names. <i>Nor do I remember the names of doctors or techs or nurses. This may seem rude to them but I see so many, and most only once ever, I just don't bother. My mind has enough clutter, really.</i> The VERY nice woman calls me back to the torture test from hell, and actually explains WHY I have to have the torture test from hell, which THANK YOU. Her name was Joy. I know this because I spent the next 15 minutes staring at her chest while she tried to shove a pencil up my nose. Epic FAIL. We could not get a catheter to pass through either nostril. Since that couldn't happen, that meant I didn't have to wear the tube overnight either, nor did I have to totally screw up the cardiac unit the next day while they had to wait for me to get the tube removed before they could have me.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"></span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Down to the Plaza Level for an abdominal ultrasound. Ever had a baby? Pretty much the same damn thing. So either they didn't believe me, the urine test, and the blood test that I wasn't pregnant, or they really did want to look at my liver and kidneys.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Down again to C level for a CT scan. Giant donut x-ray basically. IT takes clearer pictures in slices. So they can get a much closer look at what's going on in there. You lay on a table and they pass you back and forth through the donut while the camera whizzes around inside the donut. It really sounds a little like a jet taking off, and the tech told me it can go even father than what I heard it going. Some ten revolutions every .4seconds. I will be interested to hear what the differences between last year and this year were. I'm hoping that my Pum. Dr can get copies of all these results.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Now, back up the the Lobby of Parnassus building, only we found that at some point in our comings and goings in and out doors, we were in a different building. I'm not sure how we did that exactly without ever going outside, but we had to go outside to get back. Ehh, whatever, it was fine and we were only next door. I finally receive a call back from one nurse coordinator about trying to combine one other blood draw with the heart test I was having the next day. Turns out the heart test would be ventricle (through a vein) not arterial (through an artery), so them drawing blood wouldn't work. Dammit. This meant I was going to have to have someone shove a needle in my wrist and dig around for the artery there. <i>A note should be made I HATE this test. Almost as much as I hate a failed nasal catheter.</i></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"></span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Now I'm technically done with all the tests for today, but to save myself running all over in the morning before the heart test, I run up the block and have my EKG done. While I'm there my nurse coordinator FINALLY friggin' calls me back from the day before. She has scheduled my ABG (blood gas, needle to wrist test) on the 5th floor. OK, I make sure I ask twice which floor. 5th. She's sure, I'm sure, we're good to go!</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>We head back to the 5th floor of the first building we were in. We read the signs. Nothing screams GET BLOOD SUCKED HERE. One way says: Lung and Allergy. The other said something that sounded blood like. Hemoglobin Clinic or something like that. We headed there. They looked me up on the computer and said Oh no that's on the 6th floor, GI clinic. <i>(Read first part again about not remembering names....)</i> So off we head to the GI clinic. Or should I say,<b>back</b> to the GI clinic. We round the corner off the elevator and I'm all Dude, we've been here before. Bill says, "how can you tell, they all look the friggin' same?" Then I'm all, DUDE, I<b>KNOW</b> we've been here before. Oh yep, there is the receptionist lady from 8am. I said to her, ha, bet you thought you were done with me HUH? So she is totally sweet, makes 5 phone calls (5, because my nurse coordinator doesn't return calls, or apparently answer her phone) and finds out that YES I am supposed to be on the 5th floor. At the allergy clinic. I thank her profusely and off we head the allergy clinic.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I might mention that at this point it's about 11:30. I haven't eaten since the day before at 6pm, and that was only 1/2 a grilled cheese. The elevator is really beginning to be a head spinning experience and these elevators go at mach nine. We're sitting waiting to get this <i>one last tes</i>t, so we can just leave and eat real food. And waiting. And waiting. Then this man start talking to me. Do I look nice? Do I look friendly?Man, you have a southern accent, I look at you and see fried chicken. Turns out, he was a totally nice thigh, I mean GUY, who had a double lung transplant in '04. The, hot & sour soup, opps, man, he had been talking to before us, was a single lung transplant in '03.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Finally they call me back for my blood stick and we find out how unprepared some clinics are. You see, I'm horribly allergic to rubbing alcohol. It's a real pita at a hospital. They are not prepared for this at all. Now, they can use betadine, they can use a baby wipe, just don't use anything with alcohol. Turns out there was NO betadine on the floor. All of their wipes were expired, in Jan of '09 (check the stock much?). The poor tech finally found a bottle of betadine somewhere and we got the draw done. But not before I scare him by telling him I hope he's good and hurries up, I'm starved I haven't eaten in 17 hours. He stops, says, have you drank anything. I bat my eyes, lie like a rock, and say yes, plenty (4oz of My Dew <i>totally</i> counts). He breaths a sigh or relief and says phewwww he was worried about dehydration.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "></span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Then we ate. Went to the motel. The end.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Just kidding.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Well, not really. We left SF, saw an Outback Steak house, planned dinner, went back to Mill Valley, ate at DipSea, got a stomach ache, toured around Mill Valley a little (as long as you consider driving around and stopping a the pet shop, <i>touring</i>), drove out the Stinson Beach (their ocean is as ugly as ours, <i>IMAGINE THAT</i>), went back to the motel, and vegged until we went back to Outback for dinner.</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>When we finally did go for dinner we realized Outback was actually in a big box mall. OMG. I could have walked around Best Buy and Ross or Babies'R'Us ( after the urine, blood and ultrasound it's been confirmed we will not be needing such a store) rather than drive to the ocean. * forehead smack*</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>So I'll save the Heart test for tomorrow. This was enough to write today. The heart test day is a whole post worth on it's own. And I have the scars, bruises, and rash to prove it.</div><div><br /></div>Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-3247412740297238422009-12-31T21:36:00.000-08:002009-12-31T22:09:40.947-08:00So I had these great plans at 9:30 on New Years Eve to throw together a year in review picture post.<br /><br />I discovered that A) I don't have any pictures from this last year on my computer at all and B) maybe I should have thought about this a little sooner. (Like maybe during the 10 hours today I spent scanning the TV for anything [oh god please, ANYTHING] to watch, while I felt like crapola and stayed on my 02.)<br /><br />So maybe my posts will help.... I blogged at least once a month right?<br />No? Really?<br /><br />January found me sick and I landed in the hospital in SF after a terrifying plane ride. I don't care who tells you it was "lovely and calm", she lies.<br /><br />February found me still in recovery mode from being sick. It also was the start of kidding season.<br /><br />March it was back to business as usual. Our last kids were born by the 2nd of the month and we lost our herd matriarch, we came very close to selling the whole herd. I fell on my ass and bought 8 chickens in the same month. I must have hit my head when I fell.<br /><br />April, wow I am a really dull read. *tap tap* Is this thing on? Feed changes, doctors appointment and the start of show season. Oh and work....<br /><br />May we lost a friend, went to a couple goat shows, finished our first doe, and it rained. And work....<br /><br />June we hauled the kids out of the yard, reaffirmed the fact that I HATE Purina feed, and made plans to go to a long show out of state.<br /><br />July we went to said long show out of state and had a great time. Bringing home a crap pot of ribbons helps. Oh right... and work.<br /><br />August I posted NOTHING all month. Wow. You people are still here? Right. Only because I'm stuck in your feed reader huh? It's ok, you can admit it. Well I know we had our fair. Drama, blah blah blah, same BS different year, good judges though. I saw my DR and he wanted me to drowned myself for good health.<br /><br />September we lost a close friend of my husbands unexpectedly from a heart attack. We also lost a former co-worker of mine from the fair. I just kept hoping I wouldn't be three. <br /><br />October I lived to see another birthday but as usual didn't celebrate. Made an appointment with the lung transplant team for Nov., Greg caught a cold and shared, and I recapped all the reasons you should stop smoking.<br /><br />November I saw the transplant team and got the go ahead to start having the pre-transplant testing. We had Thanksgiving dinner with my mom and got a new puppy. Oh and I still had a cold. I just can't kick shit like I used to!<br /><br />December we had the trip from hell that I never recounted here (sorry) for the beginning of this testing BS. We spent christmas with my mom and Bills parents came for Christmas eve.<br /><br />happy New Years Folks. I hope you all have a safe and happy new year.Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4296959206590534893.post-11084769616938499252009-11-28T13:36:00.001-08:002009-11-28T13:42:12.993-08:00My brain is set to fry and it has nothing to do with the fever I do not have but feel like I do.<br /><br />Holy shit information just flows out as fast as I try to store it. Greg and I came up with a pretty good meal plan for the next few days while we were driving home from the store. I get home to look for a tasty recipe I bookmarked (thanks <a href="http://www.amalah.com/amalah/">Amalah!</a>), and totally got sidetracked printing all the recipes Greg needed to update his cookbook for school. Now other than the side dish I just printed, I got nothing. Shit shit shit shit for brains.<br /><br />So now I have to sit here and figure out what I was thinking of cooking, so I can make a shopping list, so I can go BACK to the friggin' store. See.... s h i t for brains.<br /><br />Luckily I had plans to go to a different store to check out their meats, so that was kinda planned anyway. We would have made all the stops at once but the puppy might have eaten the groceries we already had, she has no car manners yet. And the 8lb wonder weenie likes to sit on the dash and just watch her get into trouble so she has more to sneer about. ;-)Fogspinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12436194595297678016noreply@blogger.com0